The beginning...Basic beats.

So this is where I am.
No where.
It's all new. It's all starting over again. No job (well as of in a week), no husband...not to say I wasn't very very close...and living in, (~sigh~) yes, my parents basement.

And I turn 24 in less than a week.

Not to say this is ancient, by any means. But when you're looking at life and realizing the amount of prospects that are available to you and coming up with 0...it's enough to make your ovaries explode. Which I imagine as a very painful experience.
I've spend most of my life being about as average as you could imagine. But to make matters worse I BELIEVED that I was the furthest things from that. I always believed I saw life in a different light; through a different pair of multi-colored glasses. And I did. But I never did anything about it. For some reason my dreams, no matter how beautiful and good-intention-filled they were, always seemed like too much work for just little ol' me. Or I figured if they were really meant to be, they would be easy to accomplish. Thus, a life of many good intentioned trys to do SOMETHING worth while abandoned after it got hard.
Well, now I'm still at square one. Waiting for life to start...while the whole time it's been running! I'm missing things. I missing basics. And since they say the way to change something is to make small goals to reach your final goal, I'm going to goal my way to enjoying this life...one goal and or blog at a time.

So here it is. My chance to change. To find my rhythm if you may. There are many ideas of what I should be and/or like. But when it comes down to it...only I can decide these things (Sans the desire to fit in within a crowd I admire or the influence of people that are so naturally rad). I'm finding me. Boring and simple as I may turn out to be. But at least it will be me. And I'll finish it. I'm starting it...and I'm going to finish!
So let's give it a year. I'm going to do my darndest to do this everyday. There may be a few exceptions considering my location for the next month or two...but I'm going to try.
So...it begins.